A Love Note from the Mama

Dear Bebe;

Mama loves you so very very much...

Please be patient with me while I try to keep you comfortable. I so want to hold you and cuddle you and not let you go and I'm sure that can't be comfortable, what with the xrays showing what they do.

I know I'll have to let you go soon...I'm so sorry we don't have more time together and if I could do anything to stretch the time or lessen the tumor or ease your breathing, I would do it in a heartbeat.

I look around the house and you are EVERYWHERE and I know you will be here in my heart forever but there are the scratch marks on the furniture and the doorjambs and you've always eaten on the cupboard and have always jumped up there when I was in the kitchen and I'll miss your chirp when you jump down and then there's your Duckie and your Puppy and the little white TY kitten that was bigger than you when I met you and I know how YOU LOVE ME BEST TOO, you are so loyal to me - there's always been a swell of pride in my chest knowing that I was the only one you were yourself with...

I really don't know how I'm going to be able to let go of you.

I love you so very very much...

xoxo
Mama